lost items

my favorite wallet ever :(
house keys
car keys (not mine though :( )
watch from dad
charm from grandma

rollercoaster ride

quite a happening weekend in chicago so far.

friday:
went for some ibm training (which completely felt like being in school since it was labwork), but turned out to be a text messaging session between my classmates (i'm a terrible student). night time comes, and it's time for the SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE concert!!!! absolutely amazing. ridiculously amazing. POT-SMOKING-HIGH amazing. sister's flight was delayed too, (thanks to chicago's large thunderstorms), but she got in on time with JUST 5 minutes to spare.

wow.

saturday:
lazy sleep in, decided to have chicago's deep dish pizza at Giordano's. next thing i knew, my purse was missing. found out that someone had swipped it while i was on the phone. *ARGHHHHH* called to cancel my credit cards and freeze my checking and savings account, but they had already gone to a gas station and circuit city. they definitely stole it. :( and i LOVED my armani exchange wallet. *sniff*

dinner time, went to fogo de chao, amazing all-the-meat-you-can-eat brazillian restaurant with a few friends. 18 different cuts of meat. amazing time.

at least the entire day wasn't ruined.

do we always want more?

got a chance to catch up with a friend whom i haven't seen in a while. he gave me the latest updates about his whereabouts, what he's been up to, just life in general. then we talked about family, responsibilities, things that tie us down, opportunities that escape us and make our dreams seem even farther away.

"i wish i had your life" he tells me.

taken aback, i realize that we will always want someone else's life. compared to someone else, our troubles seem overwhelming. compared to someone else, our family seems dysfunctional. compared to someone else, our lives just suck and definitely could be better.

i've been in that boat before. envious of a then-boyfriend's life, i watched as he went home whenever he wanted. had no debts, is a smart kid, and seemed to be pursuing life exactly how he wanted. didn't help that i wanted his life.

i've learnt to be happy where i am. to be contented yet motivated. satisfied yet driven. but i still do lapse into moments. moments when the grass seems greener on the other side. it's hard not to want more.

the nano

this is ridiculous. now i want this.

and why is it so hot in sf right now.

my prayer

dear god,
thank you for your hand on them
it's amazing, your impeccable timing
during a time when the country feared the most
you brought them to safety

thank you for letting me have them for longer
and although many lives had perished that day
my own selfish me cannot help but to give thanks
that i still have my loved ones with me today

general useful tip #3

don't take out your contacts right after flossing. lalala it stings.